aaron and claudia

i have been thinking a lot about aaron and claudia lately. these are jasen's kids who i haven't seen for almost 2 years. i miss them so much. i think about what they are doing and who they will become. aaron will be a freshman in high school and claudia will be in middle school. i can't believe it. i miss day to day life with them. little league games and making pancakes for breakfast. i miss claudia climbing into bed with me wanting to hear a story and walking frodo and eddie around the neighborhood wondering what kind of super powers they would have if they were superhero dogs. i miss aaron asking me for advice about girls and playing video games with him and his friends on sleepover nights. i was the first person he told after his first kiss on his birthday, just 4 days before the accident. i thought my heart was going to explode out of my chest when he told me his news.
leaving them behind was difficult. i know that i put up with jasen's shit because i thought that aaron and claudia needed me. now i know that it was me who needed them. loving and knowing aaron and claudia brought the best of me out. i hope that wherever they are that they can sometimes feel me loving them, because i do, fiercely and simply.